BUT i’ve overcame one little thing - i haven’t eaten anything after 6. i’m guilty for eating junk food after 6pm, so little progress has been made :) better than no progress at all. tomorrow, i’m going shopping for last minute holiday things so i’ll be out and getting some exercise. i might suck in all day so i’ll be working the abs. i’ll do 20 minutes of cardio in the morning (if i can) or do my ab exercises. i’ll start my day off with some cheerios and for lunch i’ll probably have to chose something from a fast food restaurant - i’ll go for a subway. sort of healthy, right? if i get hungry when i’m craving to binge, i’ll eat my sugar free jelly. the strawberry flavour is 2 calories and the raspberry is 10 - TOTALLY YUMMMM. & i’ll snack of an alpen bar if it’s not helping. for dinner, i’ll have wholewheat pasta :F got to take it in baby steps.
i’m starting the gym once i come back on holiday :) my grandpa says he’ll take me (ikr, my grandpa… i’m 16, but i’d feel better going with someone to keep me motivated. my friends aren’t up for it + my grandpa is as fit as a fiddle and is wanting to get back in shape! he is trying to go for a healthy lifestyle so he’ll be a great influence on me). i’m going to start toning up and burning off the fat. I CAN DO THIS.
i hope my holiday away will do me good. i just need to get away from here for a while. i’ll probably be less likely to binge on holiday because i’ll be spending my days lounging at the pool, away from food cupboards. i’m going to take advantage of my holiday - there’s a pool, so i’ll spend a lot of time with my brother playing in the pool with a ball and maybe try and do some lengths in the morning before it gets all crowded. there’s also a tennis court - me and my brother have challenged each other to a game! i’m so going to kick his ass, i used to play tennis but quit once my friend left my hometown to live in france. the food however is a buffet. this could go two ways - healthy or unhealthy. i can limit my portions though, something i can’t do with family around. i can stock up on veggies if they have any and eat all the fruit i like.
even though i won’t have the flat stomach i hoped for, i’ll going to enjoy myself and make this vacation into some sort of recovery week for me. i’m not going to let this destroy me. i’m not going to let it win.